BEFORE YOU LEAVE,LET ME SAY WHAT I HAD WANTED~

Dearest reader,

Firstly,let me update the latest news to everyone,I had my tooth operation done and the tooth that's in my gum is gone..Yippee~At least I don't have to worry about it anymore..Wanna know how was the operation?...hehe...Okay, first,the doctor gave me 8 injections in my gum(to numb my lower lip and gum)..Second,the doctor damp my whole mouth with a another kind of medicine(leaving a cooling feeling and a little numbness)Third,they covered my eyes!! Okay and here was what i heard...I heard drilling sound(to chop off my tooth into 2 parts-easier to be taken out) and cracking sound(my tooth cracks after the drilling) and,the sewing of my gum..It's hurts at first but it didn't last and before I know ,the operation was finished?! haha,and for the first day,I was like a mute..can't open my mouth..But the funniest part was I pinched my lip super hard and I have no feeling so I asked my sis to pinch it too...Dumb!! But when the second day arrived,it hurts like hell!! I had the urge to cry and shout and just chop off my chin!! ...Also,I had a swollen,super swollen CHIN! hehe..But after that day,everything was better..I'm used to it...Having a small mouth and I could only have porridge..However,I secretly ate nasi lemak and some crackers..they found out and told me...You're really a pro,mouth hurts yet you could still eat it..And i told them I swallowed it(: haha..I am ugly with a swollen chin;( hehe..!


I GOT MY ANSWER~~

My eldest sister asked me-if there was another chance to restart again(to never say the 3 words),would I still choose to say or I would not..I answer I would not and know what she told me...She said I wasn't really in love...I kinda believe,perhaps it's true...But after a few days,I came up with my theory and the reason for choosing not to...and I disagreed with what my sister said..I mean how is it possible to feel what I'm feeling..Do you know why I chosen not to tell if I had another chance..? It's because if I didn't told him how I feel,I could still be his best friend,then nth will be awkward,nth will change,we'll still be talking,chatting and playing or even joking..hahah..I should have think before I do..It was such a huge consequences and I find it hard to bear..Though I once said I will and could but I just didn't get the chance to know how impossible and tough it was..



I am sorry that I told everyone I'm so over you because the truth is I am not,I'm shock I said that too..Actually I'm silly enough to be still there,waiting and hoping for that only miracle that's not gonna come true..And do you know why I stayed believing?...Because you pretended nth happen and erased the past..Nobody gonna remember what happen,so the only way that make ppl remember is to remember it myself..and moving on is to forget about it..That's why I don't want to...I cant bear to let everything go down the drain..Let my effort disappear..and just let my feeling fade away..It just not the way I do and it's so not gonna happen...Love isn't just a game..It isn't a kind of entertainment,it's true and real...I don't think there's anything wrong to love someone even if the person do not love you back...Why give up on love..and why turn your back on love..the moment you turn you back on love,is the moment when you never believe that there is love..I believe and will still be...I might fear ppl out but no matter what it wont fear me out again...I had chose to restart it..I just hope I wont have the same ending..even if it was to be,I'm not afraid...Love shouldn't be something you fear,it should be something you love...
One step closer,the other step down..But I know I'll get to where I want and nobody gonna stop..



PS:If I reached the top with you..Tell me how's the journey felt like? Okay?


Love,elis chen