Do you see a slide show above? Obviously right?!hahah...Okay,if you wanna know what I have been through and how do I feel about them,you will have to read the
below each photographs(: It's not that difficult There only a total of 41 photos..Meaning 41~43 words(:!! Just as simple as
people who don't know me well will be benefit,as they dont need to buy me a present..Just a tiny small little card with your wishes on it will do..However,for people who knows and are...well..
for all of you^^
Okay..So I believes after reading this,you already have an answer to
of you that reads what I had wrote above..Because since you have the patience to read it,you should have the patience to be my friend(:(: After all,I believes I'm a
!!~~So...Hey people out there,will you say hi to me? Because every friendship started off with a
..But to maintain it,we both have to work and carry a positive mind with it** Oh,just another information,I am a little
but that doesn't really matters...Because I walks around the town with my theories and unique personalities and I know I'm being
family(:^^....
I'M SORRY FOR SAYING THAT..Dearest reader,
I had make the worst mistake of my life today,how could I say something so harsh to her,she didn't do anything to deserve this! I'm just so selfish that at that moment I could only think of myself~~He is the one that made me mad,not you..Why didn't I think before I say??!! She might not be able to handle another blow...
However,I merely wanted to go back where I should and the place I could really study!! Why do you reacted so vigorously to it,why did you cry..She is my family too and she is really as much important as you,she is my life too!!! I do care about you too,just that living here is like hell!
I care take it any longer too,why do you give me so many restrictions,why must you control my life,my action and time..My every minutes don't belong to you BUT me!!...Perhaps,if you back off a little,give me a little space,I would have never said that,it would never cross my mind...
I don't hate you,I just can't seem to breath when I'm in here...
I do ,I know that I ought to say SORRY to you but I can't bring myself to..Why? After every single fights,neither will one parties make the first move?Do you know that quarreling with me break the promises I gave him,it also break my heart to see that I can do anything right,can't do anything I promises!! Just a pathetic person,can't do anything big..You made me heartless,you made me care less about this family,made me stop telling them how I feel..You made me the worst person in me...And because of you,I lost everything!!I can't do this anymore!PS:Whisper to me,tell myself where I am,bring me back to everything I once had with.....I needed you.
DOUBLE AND MORE
Dearest reader,
Wow,it's been a difficult time for me to take some time out and relax..
The atmosphere is totally tense up and each passing day,the tension grow...I wonder how,where,do I have the time to study,have I study much-able to score well? That's a tough question! No matter how much I had studied,it's never enough?!I don't understand maybe it's the matter of confidence or perhaps I'm over reacting..I merely wanted to use the rest of my time to study and so I could relax after o's~Once started,time flies!
Trying my best to maintain my health-physically and emotionally..It's really important,I don't want myself to be falling sick during the exams..After 11 years of study,this is the moment of whether you had put in all in use or you had just wasted 11 years! It's really terrified to know the truth,it's even horrifying if you failed!Therefore,just a few more weeks,buck up everyone(: Channel every last bit of your energy and you will see your effort being paid off..
Literally,I have been studying for the past few days..Incredibly,I have never had the thought to play nor relax..Instead I am loving the kind of attitude I'm having~I've found that studying or playing,it's almost the same thing..It's just, playing give you that ecstatic feel for the very first moment while studying give you the sense of fulfillment when you got back your result!! So which won't you choose.Actually,you could have both..I had chose to play first and thus I'm studying now~~At least,I did enjoy my last year in sch with my fellow classmates and friends,I am contented!!
PS:O's I'm waiting patiently and I'm ready for it(:Lastly,take good care and do your best..Your last breath!
THE REVIVAL OF HOPE!
Dearest reader,
Gosh!O-level is going to start on this Thursday.I'm kind of jumpy yet elated that this day has finally arrive.I mean 'Let's just get over and done with it!'Hahahs~This few days,I have been writing quite a few composition so as to improve my writing and definitely to score well!My effort do pay off,I score a 19 instead of a 16..I was delirious upon getting my result and was really jumping up and down in joy!! Thinking back,I feel like laughing at myself~Now,I've got this great passion in English and Poa~Doing revision for these two subject was like a game rather than work..I would hope to score A1 for Poa and a B3 for English..(:It's not a non-realistic goal if I continue to work hard..
I knew that when the first exam starts,it'll be soon over for the rest.Time do passes by extremely fast so shall treasure my time wisely..Preventing any lose of time which will result in my lose of marks..Heheh(:
I will channel all my energy in studies,merely a few more weeks so bear with it..Endure and learn it~After finishing,I could enjoy all I want!
Hereby,wishes all of you good luck in o's and all the best..Let's work hard together,nothing is impossible..
PS:You can't be afraid of the consequences and stop you from playing the game.
I AM REALLY REALLY...Dear reader....
Can't explained how thrilled I am for a new week and all the lessons! Somehow,I really longed for lessons and to study..I just wanna study and study cause I don't wanna fail my O-level~Haas,too late to realise? Luckily,I have long started but not fully charged so now gotta work harder and double of what I had done previously..Life had never been so amazing till today this moment..I really have the urge to live my every day to the fullest and this time I am not joking around..I feel that I don't have much time left to complete what I want in my secondary life..Few more months and my secondary life will be gone..Disheartened indeed but still life can't stop at one stop for too long..Time move and so we follow...Hhahhas,sounded rather gloomy so shall not talk about the things or perhaps what we will be missing after we left~ Now,let's talked about what I have done-I did 2 topics of poa tys and there are 3 more topics to go in order to finish the whole book..I really wanna score A1 in poa(: Oh ya,I have also finished a composition about friendship and the content was really funny! However,I don't know what will be the score for this paper..I been doing so many compositions yet I am still stuck with a 16 marks~~ Therefore,I am now trying different ways of writing it so as to score better, not a 16...!
Let's say:"Life is great." Full of excitements and surprises~ I do love it and I wanna create some for someone..Maybe,perhaps I am really going with my flow,after much considerations,I still come back to my first choice,but this time a different way of handling it..I do..I do....hahahas,
the time will come or maybe never but I'm already delight with this feeling of mine...No one can take it nor destroyed it..Just like force can't be destroyed nor lose so where did it gone to?
It has become a comfort,a sense of belonging and s little happiness/contented~~Do you know?
1 day and a 100 days,there's no different.. I still feel the same!
Anyway,for my frens inform,I had finished doing the graduating gifts and I really do hope that all of you will like it..Be elated about it okay? Love, like and dote...
I do misses my sisters and definitely my mummy..It should be the fourth day in china today,I hope that they are having fun and indulging in the food?hahahs,Most importantly,god bless them and take good care of themselves..I love them too much that there's no words to express..
Only till today,I found out that my life w/o them are indeed lifeless,thought that I don't need them but I'm so wrong..I'm so ecstatic that they msn me yesterday!..hehhe..Misses and kisses!
PS:Goodnight then everyone,do take good care as o-level is drawing near..
A DAY OF LONELINESS~Dear....., Today was the first day and actually it's not as bad as I thought it would be..So nothing much to nag cause I think I had nagged enough today(: Other than that,I do hope that they will enjoy their days and also buy some cute stuffs back for me..hehehe!
There is another thing that I wanted to say~The main idea of the what I'm about to say is CHANGES! Let me ask all of you a question,Do you think you can accept changes? There are two different types,some can and some cannot..Like what my teacher said-Can means can,cannot means cannot...And for me,I really think I can't and I dont like it at all~However,if they change then we will change too so in the end,everything come back to square 1..No matter which way it is,no matter how hard it is..They are always the one we love and even though they might have changed,we love and accept it..Adapt the right attitude and everything will turn out fine..
Has it all ended? I mean the invisible war fighting inside us? However,I just dont think it turn out the right way..A end but not a peaceful one~Perhaps,it's better this way..I will never understand the reason behind it but I know my reason for doing it..I have never really meant what I say,maybe my little action did hurt you but I cant possibly know,right? Maybe I'm the one to say that everything is over,a rest and it'll last...Silents always accompany when I wanted so much to start a conversation..Hah! But never mind,my choice and always,everything just dont seem to be that way..No acting,no doing and now I can say-my shoulders are light and I know from now on,everyone,things will turn out to be just right(:PS:It's right that bad and good luck do take their turn..
SENSE OF BELONGING GONE!Dear reader,Today was a bad and gloomy day for me,I feel so lost and it seems like there is no place foor me to go..It is like I am a dead body! I can't walk,I can't run,I feel so irritated and sad..
I wonder-Is these all a act? Why do you only treat me the right way,when in fact you don't care if I'm alive or dead? I really hated what you're doing to me,it's a misery and I'm the one experiencing it,not you~~You will never understand how extremely difficult it is now~I can't breathe,can't see nor feel a single thing..
Suddenly,I feel so lonely..My family is leaving Singapore in 2 more days and I am down with flu.Feels like I have to take care of everything on my own.Independence,it's so hard but now I have to learn and get it right..Everything seems to be further away and it feels like I am being abandon.I know it is wrong to think this way but I can't hep but to..Try to be in my shoe and you will know how much harder it seems..I thought that I am perfectly fine with it but in fact I am not! I can't bear to..I thought that I am not stress but I can tell you that I am super stress up and I can't think properly! I am making all the wrong decision and I can't stop! I dunno what else I could do,I don't wanna cry but everything seems to trigger my tears..I just wanna know what's wrong with me..I could always stand up and stay strong but these few days,I just cant...I dont have the courage nor do I have the strength to carry on...Now,I am doing all those wrong thing to highlight it,to punish myself? But the point is I dunno why I am doing so!! I feel so dumb and foolish...you promise that you will be there but you don't.Why lie to me?Why is everything important but not me?!!I dunno,I really dont..I no longer have a back to fall on to.. I have to keep a secret for their change which makes me feel so damn..I hated their acts,lies and to keep this secret!!The ugly side that I am facing,I cant do it anymore..
If you wanna leave,just be it..Just dont come back anymore..Since the day you left,everything changes..The change in me are unbearable and is suffocating me! I'm afraid that I can't be who I am anymore,the real me seems to be drowning...I really cant take it,not a single blow anymore....How can I free myself again? I seem to hate everyone,everything...Help me.It's dying inside.
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