Do you see a slide show above? Obviously right?!hahah...Okay,if you wanna know what I have been through and how do I feel about them,you will have to read the
below each photographs(: It's not that difficult There only a total of 41 photos..Meaning 41~43 words(:!! Just as simple as
people who don't know me well will be benefit,as they dont need to buy me a present..Just a tiny small little card with your wishes on it will do..However,for people who knows and are...well..
for all of you^^
Okay..So I believes after reading this,you already have an answer to
of you that reads what I had wrote above..Because since you have the patience to read it,you should have the patience to be my friend(:(: After all,I believes I'm a
!!~~So...Hey people out there,will you say hi to me? Because every friendship started off with a
..But to maintain it,we both have to work and carry a positive mind with it** Oh,just another information,I am a little
but that doesn't really matters...Because I walks around the town with my theories and unique personalities and I know I'm being
family(:^^....
I DON'T WANNA HAVE ANY NIGHTMARE ANYMORE!Dearest reader,I'm truly exhausted about having not enough rest..This is driving me insane..I afraid of closing my eyes,afraid of the night...Because I don't wanna face the darkness and loneliness..The mask I once just to wear had been tear off by you..So I can't face you nor do I know how to?...I just wanna be normal like how I used to...In fact,there are two consequences and thing I could do..1)Just live and enjoy it..2)Just forget about it...My heart says battle and challenge the first one but my mind says you dont need it so go for the second one...ahhaha! Which do people usually follows,their brain or heart?...Perhaps,I just have to be myself...So do you know which I will chose?hahahaha...I have made up my mind..I am going for the.................hehehe..I am showing it not telling it(: Till then,take care and goodbye..PS:Sometimes,you have gotta to go to the extent...With love,elis
CAN I BURN EVERYTHING?
Dearest reader,
Hhahah..I'm totally in love with the weather this month!Gosh,I mean,don't you think,it is the best out of this 2009 year??..Though,having the changing of climax and temperature weren't a good sign,still we've got to enjoy what it gives?..No matter what,we still have to adapt and take whatever it offers..Anyway,a quiz for all of you--"What can't you live without?"a)Love b)Truth c)Friends d)Money.....If you've chosen,love-you born to be a lover and are searching for the right one? Truth--"you are born to seek the true self and you're a strong headed person"..As for Friends--"You're a passionate and caring person and have few very close frens"...Lastly,money--"Either you're very materialistic or you've gone through many hardship,normally,you don't have many frens and also,you are not very close with your family members"....I am just writing down,it might not be right..So believe 50% of it is enough...
Will 2012 really come to an end?...What if it's true and you only have 2~3 years of time left?..How will you live it,what will you do?..Sometimes,we have go to live like how you wanna live in the next 10 years,thus,you will be able to live life to the fullest..It's not about saying that you have but to truly live it...It's not as easy s you think it might be..Living your life like it should be is the hardest thing I have tried..Till now,I have been figuring out how to..?
Yet another,yet another confirmation and yet another unknown...I'm feeling better than yesterday,you?
PS:All this time,I have been hoping you would come ard,but after all of the disappointment ,not anymore...
With love,elis
EACH DAY OF MY LIFE IS ALSO A HISTORY I'VE MADE!Dearest reader,People always said that pictures/actions speak the whole thing..So hereby,one picture..hahah!Actually,just that one picture and those few words,it had already express what I wanted to say..Sometimes,it's just as simple as A B C...There is no need to crack your brain~By the way,I'm going out soon so perhaps,I shall updated again?I understand why do people kept taking photo because,when it comes to the end..They will know that it's not a dream after all! There's prove,got it...hehhe(: K la,I'm not gonna nag that much anymore...So,I will end here and continue soon~~I feel much better than yesterday,and I will continue to.....I think it's time to stop hiding...I can face it!Jiayou elis,though I'm afraid that my faith will be shaken but I must NOT!! Determination,perseverance and endurance!!You can,you must,you need to~~PS:Sean Kingston rocks!! If I'm wrong,oh....I dont wanna be right~With love,elis
YES,A WAY BACK HOME!
Dearest reader,
"Letting go doesn't means giving up..It's rather to accept the fact that something are not meant to be."A sigh of relief...I can finally take one small step at a time..And not to gobble down every single thing at one go..haha,perhaps,I shouldn't be that greedy!In the end,I got myself choke and it's suffocating~I should see things in another perspective..In order to go without burdens,is to have to let go of all the burdens..And yeah! I felt much lighter and better...
I have got to admit,I found out how far I could travel,how much pain I could overcome..How much it cost,for me to come so far..I had finally know it all..Summing it all up-"What a great memory I had with you"..
How much could you miss someone,how much could you love someone and how much it can hurt?You will only realise it when,you are walking down a crowded street that you felt so lonely inside that you misses that someone greatly..It's when,you're flipping through all the photos and things you did for him that you realise how much you have loved him...And lastly,it's when you're fighting back the tears and wishing you were there with him that you know how much it actually hurts...Life is like an experiment,you have got to go through all the failure to success..
Naive...I was wishing upon a shooting star,was looking at the shooting star..Thought that it was going to land beside me but it just didn't..I was standing at the wrong side,looking at the wrong star..It's coming so fast,it felt good to be looking at it..That I didn't realise,I was being burned by the heat..And now I do...
It's time to have a little laugh!Because I don't wanna get sour when the things don't go my way..
Now,I am not searching anymore..And I am not looking at shooting stars anymore,I have change to look at book..It's better...If the world was to end at 2012,it's time I do something for myself..
There's lot of things I wanna fulfil..So perhaps,I could take this time off to really do it...In the past,I am afraid of change,afraid of being alone...But no more...changes is gonna be good,if I am afraid of changes,it's time I face it...Hiding is not the cure for me,facing is the medicine I should be taking...It's good to be silly,insane and childish as you don't have much to worry about..But under all of these,we are just hiding from the real world...So take it off,it's time to show who you really are! I can't always be a silly,childish girl..Someday,I have to grow up..Someday,my family will leave...Someday,I will be on my own...Nobody is forever gonna protect you,so be you own protector and angel..
PS:Finding happiness is like finding yourself(: Smile a little~
With love,elis
NO SOLUTION IN CROSSING THIS RIVER!Dearest reader,
Days after days,and I'm slowing getting the picture..However,it's not easy to live after I get that pic,it's harder than I thought..Inside me,is filled with coldness and emptiness..I dunno,how to light up a fire in it...Starting from scrap,it's never easy...The gap between is to wide,if I cross,I'll fall and drown..If I don't,I will just have to watch it drift away..You are on the boat but I am not..You're moving on but I am not..Perhaps,I am boarding on the next boat and not this one...Sometimes,it's all about the right time,right place and right person..If one isn't in the right position,nothing can work out...I know it's bad to go around someones neck,I know it's ugly to be a nagger,and lastly...The worst is all that I know have became 'dunno' at that very important moment~.Haha,lol,hehe...Is that laughing,smiling or actually it's all faking? Hello,goodbye,goodnight...Is all being polite...And that's it...Everything I once know seems to be breaking down into smaller pieces,for me to understand and absorb..Or perhaps,to dissolve..However,all of this happen in my world and not yours,for that I end my story...A goodbye without anymore hello~
I shouldn't be bother about all of these in fact..There are too much of thing to be worried about right now..My priority is family now,ever heard of family crisis?hahahs,I am really in it now! This time,is the worst of all and I don't know what should I be doing right now?I really had enough,I'm stuck...! Perhaps if grandpa was still around,he would solve it and I don't need to worry about anything..But he's gone..I am just a seventeen years old girl,what can I possibly do?Can't tell others,a secret....Because,we don't want them to worry about it too..So I should know that I have no time for all my personal stuff...The world don't revolve around me,it revolve around everyone..So no time,no energy to entertain my stupid bullshit story...
PS:I have to be fearless,but how can I when I have so much to fear about?With love,elis
A NEW BEGINNING.
Dearest reader,
Haven really been myself lately but I think,I'm so over the past me...Okay.don't really get what I mean? heheh~It's simple,I'm just getting back on track~Actually,without those lovable sweet words,I would still be confused and frustrated..But no longer will I(:So,thanks..
I should feel lucky instead,having good friends and supportive family around me,making my life better and interesting..Also,they have never failed me..It would be a dumb idea to not be friend with them..hahas(:Neglecting,a big NO!So hereby,I'm smiling and laughing..Saying that,no matter what I'll never give up and also,never to be sad(:It does look ugly when you're sad....It's true to say that you've been there,done that before..I believe..Love is not everything but without love you're not complete~hehe!
Yesterday,I realise that my grandpa was gone for 1 year..Time really do passes by very fast..Thinking of what I was doing back then,still hurts but not to the extend anymore..Just a fade away pain..Just wanna say that I still remember you,still misses you,still having lots of regrets..But I believe,you can..See,hear and comfort us,right? You'll always be by our side..Perhaps?I could see that my sisters and I have moved on,but,my grandma,dad and aunt did not...Maybe the older you get,the more fear you have? So I will held on to my youth and do whatever I wan cause I have less fear to fear...
PAIN~
Gosh,my neck hurts like hell..I think I didn't sleep in a correct position..hahahs,stupid!Anyway,today is my mum's birthday and I hope that she will be happy about what we had planned for her...She 's my beloved mum and hereby,wishing her A happy birthday and may all her wishes come true(:
PS:I would rather to have loved and lost than to have never lost before..I'm doing a replay,care to join~
With love,elis(:
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