Do you see a slide show above? Obviously right?!hahah...Okay,if you wanna know what I have been through and how do I feel about them,you will have to read the
below each photographs(: It's not that difficult There only a total of 41 photos..Meaning 41~43 words(:!! Just as simple as
people who don't know me well will be benefit,as they dont need to buy me a present..Just a tiny small little card with your wishes on it will do..However,for people who knows and are...well..
for all of you^^
Okay..So I believes after reading this,you already have an answer to
of you that reads what I had wrote above..Because since you have the patience to read it,you should have the patience to be my friend(:(: After all,I believes I'm a
!!~~So...Hey people out there,will you say hi to me? Because every friendship started off with a
..But to maintain it,we both have to work and carry a positive mind with it** Oh,just another information,I am a little
but that doesn't really matters...Because I walks around the town with my theories and unique personalities and I know I'm being
family(:^^....
A lyric so real!! READ CAREFULLY AND DO GO LISTEN..
I took a chance,I took a shot and you might think I'm bulletproof,but I'm not..You took a swing,I took it hard and down here from the ground I see who you are..I'm sick and tired of your attitude,I'm feeling like I don't know you,you tell me that you love me then you cut me down..I need you like a heartbeat but you got a mean streak which makes me run for cover when you're around..And here's to you and your temper..Yes,I remember what you said last night and I know that you see what you're doing to me..tell me why?You could write a book on how to ruin someone's prefect day..well I get so confused and frustrated..forget what I'm trying to say...I am sick and tired of your reasons,I got no one to believe in..You ask me for my love then push me around..
Why..do you have to make me feel small so you can feel whole inside?..
Why..do you have to put down my dreams so you're the only thing on my mind?..
I take a step back,let you go..I told you I'm not bulletproof..Now you know..Do you see?[Taylor swift-tell me why]
PERHAPS I'M WRONG ALL ALONG OR?~
Since I had already did everything I can,I should just let it be..Though,I do not know where I should start or how should I stop,I still have to give it a try..Can't put on a long face,it'll just make the people around me worry..So it's time I put on my smile!
At least,I don't have a sucking feeling inside,the struggling of saying everything and seeing you but doing nothing I want..I did something and I'm glad I did..Or,I'll be still hanging around like a fool..No matter what it goes to,friend are forever(:I had remembered to smile as it's over and don't cry because it happened before..But why,I still do feel sad,so lost in direction..Feel like I'm stuck in a juggle,trying to find a way out..Will I find one?
However,can I have a tiny small wish before everything stop..I wanna have one day just one..Because memorise stay and photo too but not people....Perhaps,it's weird,it's scary,it's shocking,it's unbelievable,it's crazy,it's just beyond my control..It happen without me knowing...But I could stop living in regrets as I did wat I should,said what I can...I would rather die of embarrassment than die of regrets..Embarrassment? How long could it last? Regrets follow and last forever...Sorry if I spoil anything,perhaps I'm born to be a destroyer,in a good way and sometimes in a bad way..heheh~ But still,if I don't destroy,I dunno who I am,what I am here for? Juts kidding but that's about what I'm trying to say...about being myself..They are right,I can't let it dominate my life,just LET IT BE..A phrase I just learnt! Stupid to learnt it now?But useful to use it now..hahah...
Patience,time,wait..Is in my dictionary but most importantly,I gotta enjoy my life..I'll finally live my own life and not keep talking about how to live my life..I am really serious about what I do and said here..and I promise I will do it..Who said that promise are meant to be broken!! For me,I will change it,I will not break any..Promise meant for life till you fulfil it..Understand the terms of promise so don't anyhow make one...
I learnt that action is more than words but it can't be taken to serious thought..It doesn't count, so,in another sense..If action w/o words and words w/o action..It is ZERO! Only with the actions and words then everything counts..Perhaps sometimes,you needed to see...Tears are lesson,remember,I said it before..Yet I went for a lesson again..A serious one..Give me time,I'll slowly understand what it mean and what I gain from this lesson..Sorry for making that emo me,sorry for being stupid and stone!! Standing,sitting,talking like a stone..hahahas! I won't anymore..I'm alive..so much alive..Lastly,I really do wanna thank everyone for the surprise(: I do love it..
When a cup is full and overflowing..You gotta empty it before putting anything in again..My cup is full,can't fill anymore..If I don't pour the water away,my cup will break~I'm fighting till the end(: are you ready?
PS:Actually,no matter what others say,I'll continue and I'll thrive through..Just waiting,it's not hard.
THE PAST V.S THE PRESENT!
Dear reader,
Wondering what's going on my mind today?ahhahas..Something about the past and the present..
My dearest grandfather,it had been quite some time since I talk about you,right?Perhaps you thought that I had forgotten about you and had carried on living my own life..Part of it is true,but I will never forget you,not a chance...hahhas! I just thought of you,this morning....
Thinking about the time when you knock on the door and told me that it's super late,better get up now! Or else,the sun is gonna burns you..hahas..Also,the time when you would just quarrel with me and make me angry on purpose..Part of life you will say and without this,you said it's not fun! I could still vividly remember the time you avoid the injection in front of me as I'm afraid of it..You didn't said you did it for me,but I have eyes I could see..Everything you had did,will always stay in my heart..I'll never forget neither will I cry upon thinking cause I was just smiling while thinking~~
The only regret I had was,too little time,too fast...It was our family gathering every sunday but why...I didn't see you anymore?We would always hide in the kitchen as we kinda find them irritated..We shared the same interest but it is also this which cause us to quarrel for most of the time..I shouldn't have waste my time arguing with you..I'm so dumb!I should know that you're older and more wise than me...hahahs!
Although,you will never get a chance to see my score for o-level,my 21st birthday and my first boyfriend,it's okay..You will know that I will do the best in anything and everything right..I really do hope that you will see my result and say that I did a good job,I only wanted to hear you saying that,what other people said,don't matter..You mkae me believe in myself...No need to prove to others..hahahs,funny indeed..I would also want you to see and tell me that,I had finally found the right one...Remember? I said I would find one on my 18th birthday,I don't know if it would come true..hahahs,that's was my dream and wish...Perhaps you know everything that I wanted to say and do...
Grandpa,now I really needed you to give me the advice you would once give...I really dunno how to,what to do...I don't have the courage to go for it,nor did I know if I should take it on? Erm...let me think....You would probably say wait and decide or you gotta do what you feel right??I know i know,but this time I just ran out of answer for myself,I needed someone else to tell me the situation,I am inside not outside of the story...hahhas...Fine...everyone else will still be giving me the same answer...Okay,I will...DO my best??
PS:I would really want you to see my step,one step at a time...I want you to be my footsteps..Will you?
DID I MISS OUT ALL THE FUN?
Perhaps,I only cared about how and what I feel? What about the other people,their voice,did I try to understand or look into it? I didn't...Maybe if I did try,things will change..Maybe a little more fun in my life,a little more colour added..But,whatever I said now is useless...I was merely thinking about what I feel back then,why did I make that choice?I don't even know,I don't think I even think..haha! Anyway,what past is already past..Shall not dwell over it..Having to think back is so unhealthy so move on I should have said!
It's not me that kept changing my mind,everyone is doing the same too,agree?Influence by this globalising world,haha..Nah,not really..Maybe it's the people~Yes yes no no...Stop switching side and stop changing the answer..HAIZ!!! Just feel like shouting out...Everybody,I said freeze!!
Only when the world stop for awhile,could everyone see what they have done..either wrong or right?! But mostly,are bad ones...I don't know why too...hahas...
You could do a million of good deeds but you just need one mistake to make me remember for life...And to forget every good deeds you did...WHY? A million to one..We should remember the good thing more but truth is we don't...Not anymore...We do that just on the outside but deep down it is etched to our heart!
Hey people,have you ever did something wrong and cause you to lose everything you had...I did and you know what.....You can gain back everything just to persist and you can....I didn't believe that impossible is nothing but now I am slowly believing..You too should do your best,give it a try,you have nothing to lose anyway...So don't wait...Go now!! If you are trying,I give you my best wishes..
With love,
PS:On 18 Nov,I will make a miracle so give me a little courage and support my decision..k?
READING SOMETHING NEW!
DEAR READER,
Gosh,I could feel the boredom in me!! I am soon gonna bored to death.....Other than eating,sleeping and playing,there's nothing else left to do~In this case,who wouldn't get bored....
Haiz,nvm...WenT to buy a new book by Mitch-A little faith,it's based on a true story so I bet that it would be nice?So in conclusion,I now have four things to do every day,which is sleeping,eating,playing and reading!! Ahhh..........can't stand it,thought that it should be a relief that o's is nearly over but now I would rather,it's not...At least,I have a goal I must reach everyday...How do I live my life to the fullest when there is nothing much I could think of to do?
Erm....hahhahas,perhaps it's just today or yesterday I'm feeling bored cause there are many event coming up..For example,class chalet and definitely my birthday and Christmas...I hope that this year,there will be something new and fresh..Having the same celebration feel is just not enough!! Festivals atmosphere are dropping so do/create some new stuff to maintain or improve it...Can you still feel the Christmas feel? I don't think so? Singapore is way too small to really have any feel and also there's no four season!! WINTER!! Oh maybe we do have snow,a man-made artificial one..hahahs(:At least,we know that Singaporeans are not dumb at all........
I should probably ask myself this question twice before doing anything else....I'm really frustrated by you,okay actually is your action..You kinda make me puke seeing the way you act and do...It's hard to picture it but I could feel that irritated emotion inside me...I DO not want to feel this way,but I can't stop...This shows that I still could not let it go? Don't wanna hurt nor do anything to harm you again...We just had enough of the drama,so stop it ,okay? Perhaps I should make a deal to myself...STOP FEELING THIS WAY,it might not be what you think it is!! Curiosity kills so do misjudging a situation...Think twice I say and I will!!
PS:It's seem to be fine but it's not inside...You must know the insider's story!
IF YOU'VE FEEL IT TOO.
Dear reader,
I bet you have feel the same way like I do before..I mean the title...Action is clearer than words right? If it is so,why can my action be any clearer? Are you blind or you did it on purpose...Anyway,it's not the main point of my post today...It doesn't matter if (you) got it a not..After all,everything had already been fixed ever since we enter this world..So you still have to follow what had been planned for you right?hahahas(:
I do,I do...Miss the days I had,Miss the days of happily studying and definitely the days I make a fool of myself...It's was a prefect moment(: Now that I had done everything,I am bored thus thinking back the effort I put in..
Your style,your attitude,your silent is unique but a little too weird..Anyway,final decision still lies with me,as I had said it's like banging on the wall..Perhaps I don't mind or maybe at the very last minute I might fear and change my mind..Sometimes,I wish that I could have the courage to do the things I want,say whatever I feel..That's so much easier to live my life..Let me ride another crazy ride and do another foolish thing..hehehhe,I wanna wanna dance all night up!!
PS:I could smell this sweet scent in the air,can you?
COMMUNICATION IS THE KEY ~
Dear reader,
My papers are almost over,just one more to go..When everything seems to go back to the original route,I see clearer..I've been distanced away from few (used to be) close frens..Now,it just seems that we are walking different ways..It do hurts as the days we had together are diminishing..So to save my world,save the old times...I have got to do a very important mission!!
WHICH is................to communicate with them all over again....Remember,frens go through hardship and that memories are unforgettable..So just a little snap and they will remember the good times we once had together..hehhe! Sounds like a workable plan,it might,it might work out right(:Never a tough job in my life...
Saying about this,there is this particular mission that I find it difficult to carry out..Unable to explain lot but I have lots to work on...Haiz,still I said work on...I have thought of giving up...Can't take it,then why not leave,why make myself suffer? hahahs,I don't get myself too...
Perhaps,the reason is hidden too deeply down..If it's a YES,just tell me out loud...If its a NO,I will also accept...I just wanna know the real reason for my mission?You could,tell me..........................
PS:I didn't change a single thing,it's you that changed..I don't expect more anymore..Just one more(:
PERHAPS I KNOW..
Dearest reader,
Wondering why I still up and blogging,simply I can't sleep..Took a nap in the afternoon and I'm thrill about tmr test..The ending of the important tests and enjoyment awaiting(: Gosh,I had really felt the successful in me as I did study real hard..It was the first time in my life,that I'm putting every bit of my brain juice in every tests..Hahahs,but effort do pay off..I can play at ease,as no matter what the results are,I'm already glad...Results don't really counts,what matters most is the process I went through~~I'll enjoy the days,perhaps the last few weeks of my secondary school life with my best buddies and also hereby wishing them the best!
Have I ever stop to think about the decision and path I once made?Did I regretted,I may or may not,but I can't seem to remember..Whenever I try to have a stand/a say,bad thing come break it down? I just dont get it right..7 out of 10,I am doing the wrong choice,being a fool,living a lie..
I should now try to think before I say or make a move,it's time I grow up,it's time for me to learn...It's time I walk my path alone,facing all the challenges...Everyone had their hard time and everyone got over with it..I think I am just having mine now,and I will get over with it...Remember,I am not that weak after all,overcome all these,just a small rocky surface for me..
If I had another time to go back to past,I will still choose the same old one...Maybe even is I knew it was a dead end,I will still bang my head and try my best to make a invisible wall through the dead end..hahahas,there's always a way out right? Be positive and everything will shine,even the floor will show you the way out...
Having a smile,is like having the sun on your face..So do keep that smile fix on that pretty face..You'll definitely look better..But! Must be a lively one not a dead one,k? heheh(:
Do you want me to smile,do you want my happiness to continue? If you want,never let my family and frens leave me and never let me let them down...God is in the heaven,guiding us the right way out...So whenever there's an entertainment/enjoyment...You'll eventually find me(:
Peace and love...Good night...Perhaps is morning...Night night then..Lastly,do you all know that yellow is the colour that can make you happy?Bet that you dunno..heheh!
PS:I would rather be defeated by my principles than to win on lies.
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