My fairy godmother

Written at Tuesday, June 30, 2009 | back to top

I WAS JUST TOO...

Well well,today I will not bored you all with my theory first..Therefore,let's talk about my second day in school(:..Firstly,today lesson start at 9am which mean that we got to relax for about 2 hours before learning anything new! Secondly,I got a new math teacher,although she is better than the previous one,I still don't think she is good enough to be our o-level teacher..However,I believe if a student want to learn,no matter who the teacher is,the student is able to learn~Thirdly,RECESS time and luckily I didn't order anything to eat from the set cause they waited so long for it..hahaha,as for me,I was having my subway cookies while they are waiting for it:P At least I will not die from starvation cause people are likely to die from thirst than starvation! Lastly,I was just wondering if I really do appear to be laughing every time? Maybe I don't notice but I think it's so crazy to be laughing or smiling every time..This came across my mind as today when I saw the VP of my sch,he said that I'm always smiling and same goes to everyone who just know me...Hahhas,I think that if I didn't laugh/smile for a second,they would think that I'm crazy rather than me smiling all day(: I think it's a good news,not a bad one!! Laughing help to distress,do you know..

Bad news again...Have you ever try so hard yet you're still in the same position..I did and it's totally exhausting~~! I have tried a few ways,some easy one and some real difficult one..And from there I learnt new skill which is to endure! I just wanted a connection,a link,a clue,an answer..I live my life not to find nothing but the truth..I can't possibly live with so many unsolved problems out there..Maybe that's my purposes in life...Without it,I have no peace..
I don't believe that there's nothing which I can't solve...I'll be there,just be there where the truth lies..

In search for the truth,I found something unexpected but it's not the ending I wanted so far...
With my theory,I end here..Will definitely post again..But I can no longer express my real feeling here..As it's not safe..There's trap everywhere,gotta be more careful..I can no longer different-shape the game,the truth,the real person and also the true answer to myself,the reason for me to continue..byebye(:

Written at Sunday, June 28, 2009 | back to top

THE ONLY CHOICE!

This time,I'm taking a real long journey,however I realised that it might be better to just wait and see..Sitting on the side rather than playing along with the 'play'..Life is like a storybook,you either have a good content or you've a total disaster ...Living something differently? It's a brand new feeling and I could feel that I'm more mature in making decision..I'm not like the old me,who always speak without even thinking if I could hurt someone feelings..But at least I learnt and I proved to myself that I'm capable in doing anything and everything! Maybe sometimes,good things take time,they don't come when you want,and leave when you don't..They want to see YOU putting in some hard work before anything happen...It's not bad to let you have the time to consider if you really need the good stuff..Sometimes,you just ended up not wanting it..They are just like pets,you love them ,they love you back..However the only different is,when you have really get the good stuff you initially wanted,you simply neglected it and BANG into the garage..Sad indeed, so be a little more mature in the things you are pursuing..Don't fight a battle with no confidence..

One word left-stop/aside/wait..Okay,I know that sounded like three words but use it separately and it'll be just one word...There's some kind of sadness but some kind of peace in me..Maybe I have never really express how I feel,but it's never a bad point(: Of course,wadever I do,I told myself that I meant nothing bad...hahahs! BULLSHIT...Sometimes,things changes and you just gotta say how you think/feel about it...Do you believe that there is an end to everything?I use to but now,no~"As tough times don't last and failure happen only when you give up."Good yet common phrase? But it has never occur in my brain and when my fren suddenly told me about it,it change my views...I was about to give up and just let it be but now no.

My battles have not end although I've lost one,I'm still moving on..I just needed time to heal my previous battle and in no time you will see me back with a better troops(: However,I need to stop for now at least..I can finally control and cope with it..Music are my life,it accompany me through boredom,sadness,happiness,any thing at any time.

Written at Wednesday, June 24, 2009 | back to top

NOBODY!

Who am I to judge the situation,in their heart,I'm just a nobody...Yes,I definitely feel sad and now I dun feel like caring for anything..You all always act so differently!! In front of me,you all taught me to forgive and forget,to tolerate everything..However,you all just don't do the same like what you all taught...
I'm so tired of living under their masks..If faking and acting is better than being yourself,tell me,what are you living for?! I didn't ask for lots,just maybe trying to voice out how I feel...Right now,till this moment..I felt peace as I didn't follow behind your back...If I did,I would just be like you all! Although,sometimes I am bad,at least I felt guilty for it...You all just thought that it's them, who are in the fault..When grandmother is sick,did you all really care about her? Maybe?I didn't care much too but after I knew she was diagnosed with depression,I spent more time at home rather than going out..You all kept going out,you all might said that it's because of the blogshop but HEY,what use with having money but no one to share with? You all said that I did a little,but did you all think about it..It's my final year and there's much more meaningful things than this....I didn't put in my heart and soul but at least I did care...Now onwards,for them I got nothing better to say..I'm just too tired of their cycle..

In life you can't wish for the things that are not meant for you,however you can work hard to make it happen..REMEMBER effort do pay off,but only if you did 100% of it..99% dun count...You gotta put in your heart and soul...In my life,I don't wish more,just that the people I loved do love me back..Family,Friends...They are the ones that I can't afford to lose!.....And my life journey will continue.

Grandma I do misses the time with you that maybe I had long forgotten but right now every one of it is so vivid..I don't want you to forget me one day,there's gonna be a cure-trust me I will make the miracle happen***
Offer me a slower pace of life and I'll be grateful(: Treasure everything,I dun wanna regret once more thus believe me,I'll make the right choice..!

Written at Friday, June 19, 2009 | back to top

TEARS ARE MY LESSON!

Firstly,I should really praise myself for studying hard for this whole week!! Cause at least I did what I had promised myself...I found out that,studying could be a fun thing too~However,I dunno why the people around seem to be troubled? Are they or I've just misjudge the situation?
I really dunno,I can't really help and I can't promise to be by their side..Thus,I'll leave them to rest and think about it,weigh the good and bad before giving any conclusion...I believe they will be just fine!

For me,I've a wonderful life although I fell a couple of times,I am still standing,looking back the path I had walked...And for that I felt rather contented!!(: No one gonna tell me what to do,wad's right or wrong,who's good or bad? So I gotta search for the truth myself..They of course can tag along but in our own life,we decide and they support us...You must be the one to open and find the true of the truth!! With that mind-set,nothing can knock me down...Maybe there is,but it will only be me-myself...hahahahs..However,I decide to rather make friend with myself than be an enemy with myself....!!...You might be lying but I took everything to be real,you might not be playing and now I see...It's all about how we view a thing,how serious do we take it? It's all up to us....

Life for today,wasn't really good...Benefit do benefit me...But deep down you know everything so clear and simply...The answer had long been laid there,I just didn't care to flip it open and take a look in it....However, now I did,and I found out how could I blind-fold myself for so long..I didn't want to admit the facts at first..But as time passes by, you know you have to!! Lastly,I was quite pissed off just now,been scolded for nothing...I didn't say anything,doesn't mean I admit it's my fault....You've been crazy and wrong,wake up.will you?? Why,when grandfather died,their world seem to fade away too?? It's just not worth it...I can't say anything,just don't be..It's not my choice they changed,it's theirs...I have an option,it is not that I have no choice so I will bear with it...I want to be better,even better than now,better than who I am!!I believe the superman is myself when I succeed in everything,I'll be my own super hero!!(: With that I leave my name proudly-ELIS!

Written at Monday, June 15, 2009 | back to top

I'M HAPPY THAT MY FRENS ARE HERE!
Can time really prove everything? Nothing have ever been true? Gosh,this is a no answer question..Anyway,I proved myself right for that moment..As long as you try,there's gonna be another tomorrow.However,tell me who has the patient to keep trying..For me,I definitely can.Cause I know myself,I know my limit..Sometimes,people said they can,but halfway through,they fell/failed a dozen time and this made them stop and run away,maybe?They just won't continue...Theory over and over again,but it's real..Think about it,everything happen because of something and everything has a consequences to it.No one know wad's the ending but we can predict,right?Sometimes,I wonder do I really mean wad I say? Have I ever consider their feelings too? If I am bad,tell me all about it..Cause I can't possibly know all my bad points,I just need the truth,I need you to tell me!

I should stop my theory here and tell you all, something fun?!Yesterday was my family outing and I totally enjoyed myself,it's been some time since the last outing^^ I really missed it..Anyway,I'm glad to hear that this Sunday,there will still be an outing!! I'm so excited(: As for this Saturday,I'm out to wild wild wet and escape theme park....Thus I concluded that it's going to be a tiring day!!~~ However,the memorise will stay thus no matter how tired I am,it's worth it...That's why it's call the family day!--Father And Mother I Love You..

I'm there-simply thinking about it over and over again till I find the key to my heart and reveal the truth I've been waiting for~Take care and byebye(: Remember life is like flying a kite.....

Written at Friday, June 12, 2009 | back to top

THE THEORY IN MY LIFE....

Possibly like what my friend had told me,I'm pathetic??...Know why,I really couldn't promise to what I say I'll do..The determination just seem to fade away when I see you....It's weird cause I'm ELIS?!! However,I believe that after trying a few times,I will/can do it~~
Today I went to watch the ghost of past GF...It's quite nice and very meaningful(: I could remember a theory the guy mentioned..-You never give up in love as regret hurt more..It's a miracle and you dun wish to live your life with regrets,right?That was like super true,don't you think so?...If you love that person and you chose not to say about it,you'll never get the chance to know if he feels the same way towards you..Even if he rejected you,at least you know that you try and you'll move on with your life with a answer and no regrets!!!hahahas(; I dunno why did I said that too,kinda bored to read my post??Okay,I bored about writing too!

I'll do the right thing at the right time,dun I'll never give up..I hope you understand my reason as I dun wanna waste my life with regrets...I believe in trying even if it's a dead end...I make the impossible possible,I just believe and my faith will bring me to a higher level^^

Written at Wednesday, June 10, 2009 | back to top

IS THIS THE FACTS,THIS IS WHAT I GET!
Must a person life be living in a cycle? Repeating the same things over and over again?Gosh,you know it's either peacefully or the worst nightmare...If you have a pleasant tomorrow,it's a good news..But if you have a terrible tomorrow,it's a bad news....This cycle is bad when you are having a bad day!Never mind,maybe it does not apply to all~~Or maybe it's just tiredness...It's your choice...

Prefect on the outer but poor inner?Or prefect inner but poor outer? Which is better...My dream are drifting away from me which I've always believed in..If it's really gone,what shld I do? Do i have a choice,no matter what, the current will blow it away? Sometimes,I can figure out what I want but sometimes I just got stuck....I'm so frustrated about my actions! EVERYTHING needed two hands or human to be complete.If one is trying,the other is not=FAILED! Why should we try so hard when we know there's no returns,our mind-set are fixed thus there's certain thing that we can't think out of the box....However,we just needed some time....Give me more time,I'll and definitely pull those reality back into my life and the smile I've always carried!...

Granddad ,I'm missing the days,I'm missing you,I'm missing my life w/o you and I'm missing your words and lots more which are left unsaid and unanswered..I'll go to the end just to have a glance at you! I have dream that you came back but waking up to find that you're not there,I've sense your present but I can't see you,I've done everything I can but I still couldn't fulfil what I promised! Tell me,what's ahead of me,show me what I can do w/o you..I've stop my journey and I find no reason to continue......

Written at Sunday, June 07, 2009 | back to top

I WANT TO GET OUT OF THAT CYCLE!

I have started to realise that it's so clear and fake...Therefore,now,I got nothing I could say and definitely I dun wanna continue my life this way....I'm so sick of it~Just why didn't I realise it sooner?? Am,I dumb? gosh,it's just right in front me..I admit my emotions have let me to the wrong path,have covered my eyes and now when I stop that I see!! I have neglect the fact which has always been there...Maybe,it's just a valuable lesson to learn...Not blaming in fact thanks! Will I stop doing the same,it's not their fault but it's also not mine..Actually,I just gotta do it in another way...I will still get to the same place like others,just a little slower than them...I dun mind if it's the truth..At least I know I'll reach my destination either way!!(: Tears are the precious price we gave to learn...

Written at Thursday, June 04, 2009 | back to top

IT'S BEEN WONDERFUL FROM THE START!

Firstly,it's English mock test today so as per normal I woke up early in the morning at 6a.m..Okay,maybe a little late,you know, human beings tends to be a little lazy while getting up after having a 5-6 hours of sleep!! Never mind...Continue...~Listening to the same music again and again,I really going to update my songs and know what,I'm going to dig my drawer to find my MP4 and store all my songs in it rather than in my phone CAUSE it makes my phone super lag!! That's what my frens been telling me~ Well,I'm not really sure if transferring of songs will help;/...
Oh ya,I'm currently reading a book name:"Miley Cyrus-Miles To Go",it's not my book,I borrowed it from a frens...As you know,she just ROCK and this book is worth buying and reading!! It talks about her life and a lot of encouragements(:
There's is also phrases worth thinking and really reflect on your real life..She might be a celebrity but she was once a kid just like us!...A chance and believe turns/makes her different~So the most important thing in life is to HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF....

Today TVM's quotes were quite meaningful but due my my brain capacity can't store that much!!! But I could still remember a couple of it...1)--You're not afraid of the things you know..2)--Life is actually curiosity...

Lastly,I wanna tell all of you what I've been thinking all this time! You might not be excited but I'm totally thrill about it...A little crazy must come at the right time(: Do you ever have the feeling of your dreams coming true? It's like I had this plan in my brain,nobody know it(maybe except god) but somehow everything just slowly fall into places,like how you wish it to be! Okay,it might be a coincident but it also might be true-A miracle?...I have never think my life will be complete or happy but actually I just realised I have been happy since I was born and I have everything I got,luckily I'm not too late to realise it!!...If my dreams dun come true,I'll make it true..If my heart and mind are not singing the same song,I'll find another song...If really there's no way out for me,I believe someone will save me...It's always with us,why didn't we notice it...Be optimistic!~~I'm clear with my decision,it's a win-win one...I'm not stupid nor am I dumb anymore...It's time to change for a better one and STAY~(:

PS:Be a new person and set free.Don't feel like you're looking through a broken glass at your broken future and shattered past..Because it's time for you to shine and change the world...You're the one that brings the light,don't throw it all away(:

XO,take care and bye bye...May your surrounding ppl stay happy 4ever!

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Do you see a slide show above? Obviously right?!hahah...Okay,if you wanna know what I have been through and how do I feel about them,you will have to read the title below each photographs(: It's not that difficult There only a total of 41 photos..Meaning 41~43 words(:!! Just as simple as ABC.. Anyway,I should have introduce myself first...I am elis as you can read...And I'm currently studying at NYP,a course named-Hospitality and tourism management..Also,I became 1 year younger on the month of november and the date of eighteen which is 18 if you cant see(:Oh,and when the day arrived people who don't know me well will be benefit,as they dont need to buy me a present..Just a tiny small little card with your wishes on it will do..However,for people who knows and are...well..very close to me...HAHAHHA! It's the day I received presentsss for all of you^^ Okay..So I believes after reading this,you already have an answer to befriend with me or not!! But I hope to know every single one of you that reads what I had wrote above..Because since you have the patience to read it,you should have the patience to be my friend(:(: After all,I believes I'm a friendly, cheerful and a funny girl..I mean a teenager!!~~So...Hey people out there,will you say hi to me? Because every friendship started off with a SMILE and a HELLO..But to maintain it,we both have to work and carry a positive mind with it** Oh,just another information,I am a little loud,a little short but that doesn't really matters...Because I walks around the town with my theories and unique personalities and I know I'm being loved by my dearest lovable friends and beloved family(:^^....WAIT WAIT..LASTLY,I wanna thank all of you for reading and here's a big hug from me(*v*)...Ok Okay...end of elis' speech/self-introduction..

Love,elis chen